Night Shifts!!

Well i just got home from doing a night shift, first one since i started my pre-op. That was very hard!! Ive been absolutely starving all night! I did take slimfast with me and had 2 during the night but it never touched the sides! At least i can get some sleep shortly and while im sleeping i wont be hungry! Im getting a bit fed up of milky coffee too now, im not a coffee drinker anyway, i just thought it would be a better way of drinking milk as i dont like drinking milk on its own.

I must say, i can definitely tell i have lost a few pounds now, i know its not much but my face looks a bit slimmer and i just feel a bit lighter in general and its a great feeling! What is even better is knowing that i am never going to get bigger again, every pound i lose now is a pound nearer to a new slimmer me! Unlike in the past when every time i went on a diet and lost weight, it was a great feeling, but i knew it wouldnt last and i would put it back on, and some more. Its a weird feeling knowing that things are going to be different this time, for the first time in 20 years i know i will not fail to lose weight and keep it off. Im so excited, i feel a bit like a child looking forward to christmas, i keep smiling to myself and feel so much happier and for the first time in a very very long time i feel really positive about the future.